Healing the masculine and the feminine

Make yourself a cup of tea or coffee and sit down in a cozy, comfortable place for this one….

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In my exploration of the journey of the Soul, I have been fond of (well, kind of) digging into the areas that one would usually like to leave alone; the shadow, the dark recesses of my psyche that I would have a hard time admitting, even to myself (let alone have an awareness of their existence – more later on the illusion of projection….). The Soul fascinates me because it admits all things into its broad umbrella of “Journey”. Our limited vision as humans gives us the tendency to label things as good or bad, pleasant or disagreeable, worthy or not, but it has been through my personal work in life coaching that I’ve had a physical/emotional experience of surrender and peace when those “dark” things have come up and when I have admitted them as valuable pieces of myself. Misguided in their expression at times, their admission into my awareness has born fruit and ultimately brought freedom to my being.

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Who knows? – Some random thoughts on uncertainty.

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“I took a test in Existentialism. I left all the answers blank and got 100.”
Woody Allen

 

“Very few beings really seek knowledge in this world. Mortal or immortal, few really ask. On the contrary, they try to wring from the unknown the answers they have already shaped in their own minds — justifications, confirmations, forms of consolation without which they can’t go on. To really ask is to open the door to the whirlwind. The answer may annihilate the question and the questioner.”
Anne Rice, The Vampire Lestat

 

Who knows?  Who really knows what will happen next? My mind has convinced itself it knows, has created a mini-series of scenarios, all of which I need to prepare for and protect myself from (and which have never really happened as scripted).

Who knows?  I wake up in the morning, full of nameless anxiety, with a sense of impending doom and yet have never bothered to question the source of it.

Who knows?  No, I was never given the Manual to Life. Nor has anyone else, no matter how convincing their outward stance on it may be.

Who knows?  This pain and grieving may tell me that hiding in my safe, dark cave at home is the only option, but who knows how I will feel, who I will meet, what heart connection I may have if I show up in the world. I don’t even know which part of me will show up from moment to moment. Continue reading

A New Take on New Beginnings

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At the beginning of every year I make it an important part of my New Year’s ritual to set aside time to allow my visions and goals to come through for the coming year. This year has been different – in fact, the whole of last year turned my personal life paradigm upside down. It began in January of last year when I revved myself up in typical Titina fashion to inspire and fuel myself with THE NEXT GRAND VISION. And it crashed and burned before it even got off the ground. Not that it wasn’t a feasible or worthy cause. Just that my inner motivation changed. Maybe it’s because I’m approaching 50 this year and the hot fires of my younger years are not as sustainable as they were (well, the recovery time seems to take a lot longer – like recovering from a hangover).

It was a very tough year. I let go of what I thought motivated me – pursuing the creative dream, the next shiny object, the next dopamine-inducing endeavor, I either lost interest quickly, failed to have the enormous energy I’d used in the past to get it off the ground (a lot of “pushing” energy), or it was “taken away” from me. The biggest of all of these was the slow and apparent deterioration of one of the most significant and passionate intimate relationships that I have had in my life with someone I considered to be my soul mate and who I felt would be my last love relationship in this lifetime (the love never deteriorated, just the fantasies and form of expectations I had built around it). Continue reading

Stepping out and stepping in.

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This is a post I began in January and am now picking up again at the beginning of March:

I am unapologetic about the fact that I LOVE a fresh New Year to begin all over again (it surprises even me, with my melancholic tendencies, that I should be such a die-hard optimist). I can already feel the look of superiority on those cynics’ faces, letting me know what a fool’s paradise I’m stepping into yet again. I mean, did those New Year’s Resolutions EVER work out?

This year, however, something shifted. I think that in previous years I may have timidly knocked on the Universe’s door: “Excuse me, if it isn’t too much trouble, could I please have X, Y, Z this year?”

This year, I stepped out boldly and claimed my spot. And I don’t want to knock my previous attempts. They all led me to this place. This place where all the messes, the wrong turns, the “mistakes”, my more-than-human failings, my false starts (I could really get into that one) and procrastinating ploys.

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Awakening the Inner Lover

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It’s easy to be seduced into wanting to be something you are not so as to please others. Life is better when you are gratefully being who you are rather than playing a role for others’ approval.

~ Rev. Dr. Christian Sorensen, Science of Mind magazine

Dear Soul-Seeders,

For a long time now I have been wearing a necklace that I made (my own “Soul Piece“) which has the word “Trust” soldered on one side. It was my own touchstone reminder that the Universe is a place to be trusted as a provider of love, abundance and limitless opportunities. It wasn’t until recently that I realized I needed to make a subtle shift to TRUSTING MYSELF.

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I was still, in fact, seeing the source of my good as coming from outside of myself. Luckily for me, (although I would’ve slapped you if you’d told me at the time) life kept providing me with unique opportunities to look within. This sometimes came in the form of attracting strong-minded people into my life who I would defer to because I didn’t ultimately feel that what I had to offer was of any value. And they were unconsciously only too happy to oblige by reflecting back that belief.

Until….

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The Grounding of the Soul

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Dear Soul Seeders,

As the crazy (for me) season of summer is coming to a close in the Northern Hemisphere, I wanted to share with you the latest lessons and reflections of my journey. Where I live, in a special little town in North Idaho, for many the summer season tends to be a wild explosion of music, celebration, outdoor activities, art events and social events. At any given moment, there is so much to choose from to celebrate that we’re out of the often-too-lengthy months of cold and grey weather. The energy of the hot sun creates the desire for constant activity outside of one’s being, and one can feel like the brightly-colored Fourth of July fireworks, exuberant, loudly appearing and then fading back into the night sky, an exciting yet ungrounded experience.

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Not having started the summer grounded in any particular routine around my kids and my work as well as in other issues of my life (some of it was bad organization on my part), I found that as the summer wore on, that I continued to spin out wildly, culminating in a meltdown of sorts. (It so happens that the region was experiencing the effects of an almost unprecedented number of wildfires.)  Not everyone reacts this way when off balance, but it is possible that I needed this utter breakdown and plunge into frightening darkness to ensure a recalibration of my Being, a surrender of sorts.

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

‘Sweet Darkness”
From River Flow
New and Selected Poems
© David Whyte and Many Rivers Press

I sought a coach to work with, who had me begin a practice of grounding myself. Now that I am a few weeks into self-healing, I have been reflecting on the nature of grounding on a personal as well as social level. There is too much to cover in one post but I wanted to leave you with some thoughts that I hope will lead to discussion.

  • In many healing traditions, the root chakra is characterized by the color red and it symbolizes connection to the Earth. If in balance, it can bring on a feeling that one is safe and held in this world. This can bring healing to issues around safety, being provided for, financially, emotionally or otherwise. How would we treat ourselves, each other and the Earth if we were more aware of this connection?
  • How would this connection from our root to the Earth change the pace with which we lead our lives? Would we feel  greater synchronization with the cycles of the seasons and the land that we live on and spend less time pushing agains the rhythms of our own connected Nature?

How do you (if at all) ground yourself in your everyday life? How does that nurture you? I’m continuously open to ideas!! 

Here are some resources in my own search:

http://life.gaiam.com/article/chakra-guide-root-chakra

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-4514/6-Simple-Ways-to-Balance-Your-Root-Chakra.html

http://www.earthenergyhealings.com/blog/how-to-ground-yourself

Looking forward to our collective discussions,signaturedark silver nuff sm


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The Darker Side of the Soul

 

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Dear Soul Seeders,

I hope everyone is enjoying their summer so far! It has been an “interesting” one for me (the adjective is a throwback to the British art of understatement, influenced by my teenage years and early twenties in England):

Last month we explored the idea of Seeds and I had visions of my seeds growing and blooming and already enjoying the fruits of my labor. Somehow, things have turned out differently and here is where the concept of “Soul” becomes both challenging and interesting for me. Those who know me are familiar with the fact that I love the idea of the mystery of how our lives unfold. However, this is where it can also get tricky. To explain what I mean, I thought of exploring the idea of Soul a little bit:

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